The world through my eyes

Stuck by Lightning

This was day 3 in college ... as part of the curriculum we had these sessions on various topics so that it could make us more aware and open...in one of these sessions...this one was on Human Relations ... the instructor wanted us to pick one from the group as a partner for the entire session ... of the lot of 30 odd people..I selected her...Physically there were more appealing people out there ... there were a few that I knew... just sufficiently to select them as my partner ... but I still went for her ... a bold approach ... I have that bold on rare occasions in my life ... surprisingly she agreed ...

The First Exercise
The pairs are supposed to take the partner for a walk ... not a normal walk ... a trust walk .. or walk of faith .. the best part ... for one half ... one partner has to be blinded .. for the other ...the other one..

to be contd ...

End of love story

She is getting married to someone else .... i can't complain ... all my actions ...were leading to this...it had to happen...
if you know someone for six odd years of which 5 odd have been spent dreaming about her...it hurts..and it hurts bad...
i still remember the first time i saw her..spoke to her..took her to a walk...got re-buffed when i tried to approach her...most of the year was spent..in stealing glances and oppurtnities to talk to her...the first hug that she gave me...the first big quarrel that we had...spent months avoiding each other...and then back on track...it was funny....

agonizingly...i was surfing channels yesterday and some movie was being shown on one of the channels... and..somehow i felt i could replace the star with myself and it would be my story..for that scene...
the girl that the actor loves .marries someone else...and he gets to know of it in the party that she has thrown..the actor is heart-broken..and thats when the girl realises...that the actor loved him...she has this to say to him...
"You should not hide and wait if you love someone...just go and tell her..otherwise sometimes it's too late..."
Well..what can i say...i new what i wanted but ... then i created the complications ...
Next few postings will be spent in talking about her...in more details the incidents mentioned above...

Education spoilt me

some one correctly said that...
why ...
look at me...when i was young (20)....life was simple..thoughts were simple...dreams and expectations were simple....now i am not so young...everything has changed...

then: i looked forward to a simple married life...an arranged one as it happens in my part of the world...
now: i dont know..i am torn....i want to fall in love...marry someone i have known for years...but that is not possible..

then: my idea of a good job was working for a quasi govt organisation..spend my entire life in some satellite town..bring up children and retire one day
now: no job is good enough..want to see the world...money is the only criteria...satellite towns..what is that who would want to spend his life there...

then: i was a traditionalist in my views both life and religion...i was never the religious fanatic types though...

now: i am caught between the two worlds...the old and the new...

more on this later....

Dreams

i never proposed to her!
why...
had she said no i would have been heart broken...had she said yes..i couldn't have married her...so i am still holding on to the thought...that some day when i am in a position when i can marry her...i will propose to her....
will i be able to....
i have already waited for 6 years...